Now that our class is down to 19 out of 20, projections were due soon and there has been nothing but nonstop bitching in class. For the most part I understand how they feel especially when it is made official that only me and 4 other possible classmates will still be projected for January. ( 3 of those 4 are trying for the LPN program, hope they make it)

As for everyone else, they are projected for December, which will make walking together at graduation damn near impossible. Most just want to complete, get their money and go home without looking back. (for some I really don't blame)

Where is that I start getting annoyed? When I happen to be a chapter behind EKG due to finishing my drivers ed classes (which I technically finished today) cutting into my trade time. So I figured, hey I usually don't go to lunch anyway so I will go back to class early before everyone else (if Ms. Oliver allows it, which she did) and catch up on my reading. A few minutes later, everyone returns as I am reading the last page on the chapter as they hear the above news stated about the projections....I swore there was a sentence that normally anyone could read and comprehend in a matter of seconds but once the class got worked up...I think I read it 20 times and felt like I was reading pig latin or something.

I am also being pressured to take a practice certification exam (which is 200 questions btw) to see if I am ready for the real deal on December 17th. More problems arise as I attempt for the last 2 days to complete it, being distracted every couple of minutes. Today was no exception either. I got fed upand took the test in the hallway....just to get interuptted by class cutters and visiting staff members talking outside of Ms. Kings' office...I so wanted to kill someone...a lust I haven't felt in a looooong time. I am usually patient with such distractions and immaturity but....lately....*punts stuffed rooster across her bed* Okay I feel better now. If it weren't for friends like Tuku, Sis, Jeff, Salina, Lakana and Kara; my art; and Kara's technorape music she recently gave me...I would probably lost my sense on reality and humanity would be fucked. End Rant...

In other news...I passed my drivers permit exam! Sometime after the thanksgiving vacation I should be getting scheduled for live driving lessons to get my license. I am really nervous buy my instructor comforted and encouraged me to go on and get past my fears. Its weird, I don't really associate with my family, but I sometimes wish my brothers and sisters could see me now, even my older sibs look up to me. I hate to disappoint them. Even more so my father, whose faith in my independance and strength rekindled. Too bad my mother will never see me in that same light...*sigh* I think I need to meditate more to get through this dilema, I can't seem to let go of the fact of how much my family resents me for the decisions I made...this is going to be one lonely graduation...just like high school all over again.