Now that our class is down to 19 out of 20, projections were due soon and there has been nothing but nonstop bitching in class. For the most part I understand how they feel especially when it is made official that only me and 4 other possible classmates will still be projected for January. ( 3 of those 4 are trying for the LPN program, hope they make it)

As for everyone else, they are projected for December, which will make walking together at graduation damn near impossible. Most just want to complete, get their money and go home without looking back. (for some I really don't blame)

Where is that I start getting annoyed? When I happen to be a chapter behind EKG due to finishing my drivers ed classes (which I technically finished today) cutting into my trade time. So I figured, hey I usually don't go to lunch anyway so I will go back to class early before everyone else (if Ms. Oliver allows it, which she did) and catch up on my reading. A few minutes later, everyone returns as I am reading the last page on the chapter as they hear the above news stated about the projections....I swore there was a sentence that normally anyone could read and comprehend in a matter of seconds but once the class got worked up...I think I read it 20 times and felt like I was reading pig latin or something.

I am also being pressured to take a practice certification exam (which is 200 questions btw) to see if I am ready for the real deal on December 17th. More problems arise as I attempt for the last 2 days to complete it, being distracted every couple of minutes. Today was no exception either. I got fed upand took the test in the hallway....just to get interuptted by class cutters and visiting staff members talking outside of Ms. Kings' office...I so wanted to kill someone...a lust I haven't felt in a looooong time. I am usually patient with such distractions and immaturity but....lately....*punts stuffed rooster across her bed* Okay I feel better now. If it weren't for friends like Tuku, Sis, Jeff, Salina, Lakana and Kara; my art; and Kara's technorape music she recently gave me...I would probably lost my sense on reality and humanity would be fucked. End Rant...

In other news...I passed my drivers permit exam! Sometime after the thanksgiving vacation I should be getting scheduled for live driving lessons to get my license. I am really nervous buy my instructor comforted and encouraged me to go on and get past my fears. Its weird, I don't really associate with my family, but I sometimes wish my brothers and sisters could see me now, even my older sibs look up to me. I hate to disappoint them. Even more so my father, whose faith in my independance and strength rekindled. Too bad my mother will never see me in that same light...*sigh* I think I need to meditate more to get through this dilema, I can't seem to let go of the fact of how much my family resents me for the decisions I made...this is going to be one lonely graduation...just like high school all over again.

Due to me and Ryuu's friend I got addicted to this site called TinierMe.com....its kinda like Gaia but lags a whole lot less. I was hoping to see if anyone else here has joined up so I can add them as friends if you are interested lemme know my username there is 'Scarlette'.

1. Smoked. [x]
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [X](I kissed a girl and I liked it...*sings* )
6. Had sex. [X]
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [X]
8. Watched porn. [x]
9. Bought porn. [x]
10. Done drugs. [ ]

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

1. Taken painkillers. [ ]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. [ ]
3. Lied to your parents. [x]
4. Lied to a friend. [X]
5. Been to rehab. [X] (don't ask, long story)
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Hurt someone. [x]
8. Been to a club. [X]
9. Seen someone die. [X]
10. Cut yourself. [X] (not my wrists)

TOTAL SO FAR: 17

1. Missed curfew. [X]
2. Stayed out all night. [X]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [ ]
4. Been to a therapist. [ ]
5. Snuck out of the house. [X]
6. Dyed your hair. [x]
7. Received a ticket. [ ]
8. Been in an accident. [X]
9. Wished someone to die. [X]
10. Been to a bar. [X]

TOTAL SO FAR: 24

1. Been to a wild party. [X]
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. [X] (been in one too)
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. [ ] (hate beer)
4. Had a spring break in Florida. [ ]
5. Sniffed anything. [ ]
6. Wore black nail polish. [X]
7. Wore arm bands. [x]
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [ ]
9. Listened to rap. [X]
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. [ ]

TOTAL SO FAR: 29

1. Dressed Gothic. [x]
2. Dressed prep. [X]
3. Dressed punk. [x]
4. Dressed grunge. [ ]
5. Stole something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. [X]
7. Blacked out. [X]
8. Fainted. [X]
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [x]

TOTAL SO FAR: 38

1. Snuck into someone else's room. [X]
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [X]
4. Dry-humped someone. [ ]
5. Been called a slut. [X]
6. Called someone a slut. [x] (and a whore, prostitute, and hooker.)
7. Installed speakers in your car. [ ]
8. Broken a mirror. [X]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. [X]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. [X]

TOTAL SO FAR: 46

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. [ ]
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. [x]
3. Cruised the mall. [x]
4. Skipped school. [X]
5. Had surgery. [X]
6. Had an injury. [X]
7. Gone to court. [X]
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. [X]
9. Caught something on fire. [x] (damn pancakes)
10. Lied about your age. [x] (only to avoid/scare/prank close friends)

TOTAL SO FAR: 55

1. Owned/rented an apartment. [X]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence. [ ]
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [ ]
4. Got in trouble with the police. [X]
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. [x]
7. Kissed a stranger. [X]
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [x]
9. Been harassed. [x]
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]

TOTAL SO FAR: 63

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. [x]
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x] (so I play Maple Story, sue me!)
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [X](those long talks with Ayane can be draining sometimes! LOL)
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [X](Gundam Wing marathon yay!)
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [ ]
7. Drink and drive. [ ]
8. Prank-called someone. [X]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [X]
10. Cheated on a test. [ ]

TOTAL SO FAR: 70

-If You Have Less Then 10..write [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10..write [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person.]

Um, yea...70.....what could possibly be past "horrible"?

Musket shots could be heard from all around the run down shack. Three young girls huddled closer in the corner, crying each other's shoulders for comfort. They had seen many a horror that night, to be sure. Thier parents tried in vain to protect them from the foul beast that now runs a rampage in thier once peacefull city of Velport. Lisa the youngest of the groups spoke up first. "I'm scared, really scared. Why won't it go away!" Her twin, Erica put a hand over her sister's mouth, making a silent motion with her finger. Sarah, being a few years older than the two stood up and started for the door the moment the buck shots stopped abruptly. The twins were too frozen in shock of her bravery to move from their corner. All of a sudden a large explosion could be heard and blasted the shack's door off the hinges and onto Sarah, knocking her out cold. The last things she heard before losing consciousness was her younger sisters' screams.

By the time morning came, the entire shack was in shambles. The remaining city folk that even cared to see the remains found the twins fast alseep and covered in soot from head to toe. The Governess Elenor took pity upon them and claimed them as her own. She brought them to her estate.

As for the fate of the remaining sister, most of the folk had no idea of the whereabouts of Sarah under the rubble. A lowly blacksmith and his dog came by to clean up the debri when he heard coughing from underneath some of the bricks and planks of burnt wood. In a panic he began to unbury Sarah from shack's remains. Looking around confused she asks the man. "Where am I?" Convinced of the possibilty of amnesia from the explosion, he comforts her and requested her company. "My name is Sarah, that much I know. But I feel like I forgot something very important. Do you think I will ever get my memory back?" The blacksmith shrugged and offered his arm to help her up."This is the City of Velport, you are more than welcome to stay at my place in Toriz, it's only a half days ride from here on my carriage. I have no offspring since my late wife passed last year. I would hate to see you here on the streets. My name is Brett, I am glad to have found you alive miss Sarah"

Sarah, in a confused state, decided to trust the blacksmith named Brett. As she ascended the wagon, she took one last look at the city around her. A few tears trickled down her cheek surprisingly. She didn't know why she held such sadness. Then, perhaps one day when her memory returns she may know the source of the pain in her heart.

Meanwhile at the Governess' abode, the twins were being rushed into their baths by her handservants. The senior maid snorted as soon as her mistress left the room and out of earshot. "That egotistical woman is up to old schemes again, I swear it! First, the attacks and now she is picking up stray, pretending to be some sort of heroine. Look at these poor orphaned porcelian dolls, the goddess only knows what sort of cruel fate may be in store for them."

Several years passed, and all seemed to go peacefully for the three ladies. The twins, Lisa and Erica had grown beautifully and were well respected. Lisa became a Songstress for the Cathedral of the City of Velport. Erica studied the black arts to become a mage for her country's majesty the King Sonarti.

Sarah, hardened and calloused from working with her companion Brett in the forge trained herself to become a well admired mercenary to bring in money for the poor taxed-dry hamlet of Toriz. Once and a while, she would sell her services in the city as a bodyguard. At some point down the road, Brett, fell very ill with a unknown disease. Eager to find a cure she ventured out far and wide for an answer. This led her fatefully to the City of Velport one starless night as the place seemed deserted like a ghost town.

Deep throaty roars could be heard coming from the square. Concerned, she made her way hurriedly into the square to find out the source. She found two dark haired maidens fending off a three-headed creature. A Chimera, thought Sarah. Slaying the foul beast and saving the dark haired nobles might fetch her a nice sum and possibly some much needed information. She charged from behind, and as she did she could hear gospel hymns coming from one of the nobles. It would serve as a great distraction so I can make short work of it's poisionous tail, Sarah noted to herself as she lunged and made a mortal blow for the dark red tail of the Chimera. At a glance she could she the maidens faces and couldn't help but be entranced by their beauty. Unfortunatly the beast took that advantage and punted Sarah with it's back paw, sending her flying into a pillar nearby.
Erica, stunned by the display of the mercenary taking out the chimera's tail, finished chanting and fired off a few lightning spells to hopefully paralyzing or pin the creature down. "Let's back her up for this! She may be the key in helping us to defeat this threat." Lisa acknowledged this and ran over to the mercenary and casted a healing spell. Rubbing some dirt and dust out of her eyes, Sarah looked up at the Songstress and felt a strong pain in her chest. Angry and in pain, she rose to face the Chimera head on. "My lady, can you and your comrade give me an opening? If I can get behind it once more I can paralyze it by breaking the part of the spinal column that supports the three heads. My gladius should be more than enough to do the job." Erica and Lisa exchanged glances and nodded approval. In a sprint, Sarah made her way to go under the creature. As the lion's head readied it's flame breath, Erica readied and shot an ice spell to trap the mouth of the lion shut. Lisa took the other flank and pulled out a sunrod. After a small hymn the sunrod glowed bright and blinded the other two heads. This was Sarah's opportunity as she ran up the back of the Chimera and pounded her sword into the raised spinal column.

There was a loud roar and then a loud thud as the creature fell onto it's side. The lady mercenary jumped off and went to join the the two nobles who aided her earlier. "I am very grateful for your assistance in this endeavor, might you honor me with your names" Sarah said with a respectful bow." The other two giggled in unison. "I am the mage under his majesty Sonati, known as Erica, this is my sister Lisa, a Songstress with the green arts of magic. May we have the honor of knowing the name of this brave warrior in our fair city?" After cleaning the sweat on her forehead, she cleared her throat. "I am the sellsword Sarah, from the town Toriz just outside here. My original purpose was to..." she couldn't complete her sentence as she collasped onto the ground losing consciousness.

The next day she awoke to two pale, worried faces of the ladies from yesterday. Lisa broke down into tears. "It really IS you, we thought you died!" Erica made failed attempts to calm Lisa down and began to breakdown as well. Something about this struck Sarah as odd. Thoughts of the past rushed into her mind. She remembered the burning shack and the Chimera that attacked the city years ago. Slightly dizzy and teary eyed, she met the girls with a warm embrace. The sisters of Velport were reunited and lived happily in each other's company for the rest of thier days.

[ ] public speaking
[ ] staying single forever
[x] rejection
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] that Scary guy
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed*
[x] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[x] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[x] high speed
[x] throwing up
[x] falling in love
[x] super secret

Final Total: 21*

If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of 21* out of 75 common fears.

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 11-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.

*The only thing I fear about being robbed, is the mugging itself. People often die that way.